Mom Guilt

So here I am, it’s 9:10 am on Monday morning. Mondays are the only day that my 4 children go to school for the day (they are homeschooled). I got up at 6 am, did the mom thing. You know, packed lunches, made breakfasts, got them dressed, brushed hair, made sure they brushed their teeth, loaded them in the car, and drove them to school. I got home at about 8:35 and had already decided that I was going to go mow the grass in the backyard in my bathing suit so that I could jump in the pool and swim some laps as soon as I was done. Exercise! Perfect. Well, it didn’t all work out that way. I did start mowing the grass in my bathing suit but soon came to realize that the under grass was so wet that the mower kept clogging up. I did my best and then was going to jump in that pool. Nope! I looked at the clock and realized it was 9:00. Time for the solar eclipse here in AZ, knowing me I would look right at it and end up blind. My exercise, again, like normal didn’t happen. I thought to myself after I put in a load of laundry, hey I am home alone, I really should just sit down and relax with some hot tea, watch a tv show or something. So I got my tea, turned on the tv, sat down in the recliner put my feet up, started browsing Netflix and then it hit me. Tina, the house is a mess from the weekend and all the fun. You shouldn’t be sitting here! Get up and get to work. Think about how much you could get done without the kids calling your name, or making a mess where you just cleaned. This could be the one morning that the house looks great.

Ugh! Do I have to? That was all I could think. Why can’t I ever just sit down alone, watch what I want and relax without feeling guilty? Before any of you assume that I must have a husband who wants the house perfect all the time. That isn’t it. He is actually never on my case about housework! So Why? Why do I do this to myself? I don’t have any answer except that I feel guilty. I feel like I should work until it’s done and then IF there is time left over I can sit.

Do any of you moms out there do the same? It’s not just house work. I make myself feel bad when I want to leave the house alone. When my husband is home from work and I want to go out with the girls in the couple hours I could spend with him. When I want to go shut the door, sit in my room and work on my Bible study, or call a girlfriend for awhile. I don’t know why I do it!

So here I am instead of sitting and relaxing watching tv, I am sitting and relaxing writing to you all. Writing seems to be the one thing that I don’t feel guilty taking the time to do when I could be being productive in a different way.

With all that being said, let me tell you to take that time for yourself. It’s good and its healthy. We all need it. Down time. God time, friend time, me time, girl time. Try to etch out just a couple hours a week that are for you. I’m going to do the same. I just decided that I am going to go and finish the laundry and clean up my kitchen. After that I am going to put my feet up, watch 30min of tv and then grab my Bible study and spend some time with God. Wish me luck and have a hapy Solar Eclipse Day!!

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